"I can only tell you that you are not your mind, you are not your thoughts, you are not your body. You are timeless and eternal and you want to remember." ~ Julie
One of the misconceptions in regards to the concept of "enlightenment" is that there is a big event, a sudden change - where one minute you are how you are now and then POW - you are enlightened, but it just isn't like that, in fact, if there is a sudden awakening, it takes time to learn how to relate to the world from the new way of being. Normally, there is a process of gradual movement away from form, (concepts of the mind) to the formless.
In 2000 I met and found a teacher, although I had no idea that I was looking for one. When I met my teacher, he told me some very simple truths. I have it all already, I have just forgotten. If I quiet my mind, which he gave me tools to use to do this, then I would enter a different space and if I followed this, regardless of what appeared to be happening outwardly, I would realise and find the truth.
There was no guru worship necessary, no talk of manifesting new powers, no new beliefs or identities to create or believe in, no involuntary parting of my worldly goods, no rituals,
Just truth, in its simplicity.
I practiced in varying degrees but quite diligently for many years. In 2012 there was a complete paradigm shift that altered every part of life. I had the sensation of losing the part of me that identified with being Julie. There was a non localised awareness that seemed to operate through the body. This was an extremely difficult mode to function in and took time to become accustomed to. I had to re orient myself with the world. I put away all my previous years of training and professional credentials and started working as a healer of sorts.
It took many years to navigate being this way and then again, in 2018, there was another sudden and profound change. I woke up one morning and everything was different again. I was able to function more in the body but still not of the body. The identity of an individual person was not the experience but neither was being so separate from the body. There seemed to have been in integration where function was restored with awareness expanded, resting in peace and stillness. There was a further and deeper embracing of all that arose as it happened without attachment to it happening to me, rather a state of allowing and surrender whilst fully functioning in the ever present moment of Being.
It was another complete paradigm shift. This time there was movement to share the way, to help others understand that they are not merely the story of the mind. It became apparent that just by being with me, people were changing. More and more people came and more and more people were curious.
Each person has their own process of surrender, there is no time frame, no modality, no schedule.
I know that many people are desperately afraid of losing themselves and becoming nothing/boring...a smiling idiot. My experience is the opposite. The more I surrendered to the moment, the more I let go, the more I trusted in something that was outside of my thinking mind, the deeper my experience became. You are nothing, but in that nothingness lies everything. I am ordinary, I have friends, a family, I am a sole parent raising my children, I interact with many people, I love to laugh but throughout it all, I am being. Blissfully being, surrendered to the moment in all its perfection, not judging what happens as good or bad, being with whatever is in all it entirety.
I can only tell you that you are not your mind, you are not your thoughts, you are not your body. You are timeless and eternal and you want to remember.
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